Hi. My name is Sam Jones (off course it is not my real name). I am 27 years old (going to 28) and I am HIV positive.
Yeah, still young and yet I am HIV positive. I never thought once in my life that I will be one of the millions people in this world who've been infected with HIV virus.
Well I guess this is the punishment to me from God. I never been a good boy anyway. All I care was a big dick and a good sex, which normally unprotected. Now, I have to pay the price for my ignorance.
It is hard to believe that I am positive. I keep asking myself, WHY ME?? WHY NOW?? Why this is happening to me?? I'm not a bad person. I have a descent job. I paid my taxes. I am a good citizen. I have a good qualification. I have a degree and master for God sake. I'm once dubbed as a genius by my course-mates and my lecturers. I'm just being stupid for letting those guys to fuck me unprotected and it was fucking good!!
I've got no tears to cry. But, deep down God knows how heartbroken I am.
Will I ever laugh again??
1 comment:
Hey there, somehow I landed on your blog as I was surfing the net. Thanks for sharing your experiences. Just wanted to let you know I went through a similar experience. I too discovered that I am HIV positive last year around July, it was tough going for me and I guess also it's something that you never expect would happen to you. Btw, I was 28 last year. However unlike you, I wasn't so lucky and pretty decided to start treatment immediately. My CD4 was about 310. I guess I was quite lucky that I am based in a Western country now where the medical expenses and treatment are pretty much covered. I would hate to have been stuck elsewhere (i.e. back in Malaysia). Anyway, just wanted to shout out a word of encouragement and wish you all the best in your future. Take care buddy.
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